Friday, June 01, 2007

Today Sucks... big time

Notes I've found around the house so far...


Yep, today is the day. I woke up at 3:45am to get Tristan, Alec and Izzy to the airport for their 6am flight. Yep, I'm crying. I'll see them next Saturday for a few days, but then I won't see them until July 12.
Yesterday Isabel had a hard time. She kept saying "I'm really tired Momma." So I told her to take a little nap before the church picnic. "No, not that kind of tired. I'm just... tired." Then she crawled onto my bed and started bawling. Which totally made me want to cry, but I didn't want to make it worse. She cried for a good 30 minutes. Livie kept looking at her, saying something in her bossy voice and signing "I'm Sorry..." like she always does when someone is crying. Taj got his purple dinosaur doll and made it dance and sing "Be happy!! Be happy!!" He also used his fingers to force his mouth into a smile and said, "Look at 'dis happy face. Be happy!!" I kept telling her how much fun she's going to have to which she'd reply between breakdowns, "I know, but I'm going to miss you..." Heart.breaking.Tiny.Pieces.
We had fun the last few days with picnics at parks, etc... and when they come back we will have a brand new backyard since ours right now is basically a pile of dirt. But I feel bad for them. I know they have a good time, but Alec always gets "headaches" and "stomach aches" the days before leaving too. :( I took them to Game Stop yesterday to be the cool mom and buy them all new games for their Gameboys and PSP. They were stoked! I have to earn more "Cool Parent Points" before I send them off to hang out with a chick that only has kids for 6 weeks a year so she seems really patient, fresh and full of fun ideas.
Anyway... I'm tired. I'm gonna try to get a little bit of sleep before Taj and Livie wake up.

Crying in Daddy's lap last nite. :'(

24 comments:

Robin said...

Your kids are so sweet! I know it's going to be a rough time for all of you and I wish I could give you a big hug and fill you with sugary treats to cheer you up a little. I love you, hang in there!

Mel said...

You always leave me in awe of how cool your family is! Sorry that you have to go through this.

wendy said...

You are a super cool mom! Game stop? you rock.

Sorry about today. I hope you get a chance to curl up in your bed and cry for a half hour, too. Sometimes that's a good thing!

Katie said...

Aww. I'm sorry for you all. I hope that the next six weeks go by really quickly.

Suzanne said...

Ooh! ***Hugs for Tori!*** Hopefully the time passes quickly and they're home again. I'll bet it feels like a piece of your heart is going when they go!

tara said...

Tori, that "chick" ain't got nothin' on you! Even though she may seem fresh and fun for 6 weeks, they're still crying and sick to their stomaches that they have to leave you... and that says it all! Hang in there girl!

Toni said...

Aww! You are breaking my heart! This has got to be so hard!

utmommy said...

((((HUGS))))

I hope you will have happier days than today. I can't even imagine how you feel.

Amanda said...

My heart is breaking for you Tori! Sending hugs your way!

~j. said...

You're a great mommy, Tori. Your kids love you so much. Hang in there.

annie said...

I'm so sorry you are sad. It's hard to play the 'glad' game when you are sad! I'm praying for you and your heart (and for your Izzy's ♥ too)

Heffalump said...

I hope the time goes quickly. Hang in there!

swampbaby said...

Sister,
This totally blows and I am sorry you and your kids have to go through this each year. I'm happy to get to see you and them soon, though. You can come visit me in KS to make the time pass.... I'm sad for you :-( Go get some chocolate and have a good cry.

Love you!

Chrissy said...

I can hear your heart breaking, and I am so sorry for you. Hang in there, it will be over before you know it.

elasticwaistbandlady said...

I was hoping my little slice of Good Mail happiness would reach you before today and envelope you in mirthful joy and musical Xanadu, but I guess not. (Stupid 3 Day Mail Promises)

My Magic 8 Ball says it's all gonna be okay, and we all know the mystical powers of the Magic 8 Ball are NEVER wrong! Hugs to you Tori.

Tori :) said...

Awww... thanks everyone!! Y'all rock and your comments really have helped me feel better.

EWBL - I actually did get your Good Mail yesterday and I used one of the great "ewe" cards to send the kids a note. :)

Heffalump- I got your GM today! Great timing!! Thank you so much!! I'll be posting about all the great GM tomorrow hopefully.

Y'all rock!

s--max said...

Awww...Tori, I'm so sorry! Okay, so ditto everything that everyone else has said. & I know it probably doesn't help this very moment, but look at it this way ~ at least you're the one who has to let them go...you have them 95% of the year & they have to try to compare to you the little bit of time they have w/them. & no matter how hard they try, they will never come close to comparing to you! Love you!

s--max said...

P.S. ~ Can't wait to see you!

Annie said...

I couldn't imagine sharing my kids for a few weeks out of the year with another woman.

They are lucky that they have a good mommy like you who will put on a brave and positive face to let them know that it is okay to have a good time with their other parents and love them too.

Liam's Mom - Gina said...

So sorry, Tori... I can't imagine how much your heart hurts. I'm thinking of you!

Kimberly said...

I don't even know you and I'm getting all teary at the thought of you being seperated from your kids that long. It just sounds so...so wrong! I have to echo what Annie said - those kids are soooo lucky to have you!

Help I need a user name! said...

I'm so sorry...this has to be so hard. But you know what? You are a great mom. I come to your blog every day to see what fun things you do with your kids, because although I love my kids dearly, the "fun" stuff does not come naturally to me (but I've got safe and healthy down pat). Your stories and pictures and videos inspire me to try fun new things with my 2, to let them be who they are, and to have fun with them.

It is so cool that you can let them go and do this, and not impose your feelings and your worries, on them. You have a gift for being a great mom.

I'll be praying for you and them during this time. Hang in there!

Penny

Lauren said...

You are such an awesome mom. I am sorry all of this is so hard! I feel sad for Isabel too!

No Cool Story said...

((Hugs))
You are a great mom, you know that right?
ITA/Ditto with Annie and Kim.