Friday, July 06, 2007

I miss 3pm




Y'all gon'a make me lose my mind up in HERE, up in here
Y'all gon' make me go all out up in here, up in here
Y'all gon' make me act a FOOL up in HERE, up in here
Y'all gon' make me lose my cool up in here, up in here

(DMX - Party Up)

Let me preface this post by saying - I love Taj and Liv. I do. They are awesome and I am so thankful to have them. The summer Tristan, Alec and Isabel went to Texas and I was pregnant with Taj was the worst summer ever. I didn't know what to do. I was bored to tears, lonely, and fat. :( I am so thankful I have Tajy and Livie & I don't ever have to send them away to anyone for visitation. They're awesome. But holy crap- I had forgotten what it's like to have 2 small children- and no older ones. I'm so used to having and 3 year old and 17 month old at home during the day. But at 3pm I kinda get a break because the older kids come home from school. I take Izzy to gymnastics and can run to the grocery store without taking the little ones with me. There's other kids home to take Taj outside to ride his bike, jump on the trampoline, play Transformers, etc...

The last 5 weeks with the older ones are gone...ugh. There is no 3pm break time. Whaa. I am so glad I only have 6 days until my kiddos come home. I am so bored. Sooooooooooo bored. And not motivated to do anything. (Except blog, but that's important!) I don't wanna cook dinner. I don't wanna clean the house. I don't wanna go outside- even with our new beautiful yard. I just wanna stay inside, drink diet Dr. Pepper, and sit on my butt. Could I be a little depressed? Quite possibly...
I've tried to be proactive and force myself out of the house. I signed Taj up for swim lessons and he absolutely loves it. Livie and I are taking a Mom & Me class. Holy Gay!! I feel so stupid singing "The Itsy Bitsy Spider" as we walk along the pool wall. And Livie senses the gayness because she screams the entire time. Not because she's scared of the water, but because she wants me to put her down. Since we're in 3 feet water I can't put her down. We've left "class" everyday early to play in the shallow water. She's in heaven. But then she goes psycho when it's time to leave. So, yeah, that's always fun.
The kids come back next Thursday. They fly in a little after noon and then Kelsea and Karlea arrive about 3 hours later. So, we'll go from 2 to 7 kids. And I am SO LOOKING FORWARD TO IT! Am I crazy? Maybe. I'm realizing that I'm just a lame little kid mom now. With the 1st three I didn't know how awesome it could be to have older kids, so I rocked at being a little kid mom. We went to the library. We played at McDonalds. I made felt books! (When you read that say it like Lloyd on Dumb and Dumber "Our pets heads are fallin' off!!) Yeah, well, I don't know what happened to that mom. She got old I guess. Or figured out you could just buy felt books. You don't have to make them...

21 comments:

Katie said...

I'm totally looking forward to having bigger kids. I love my little ones, but I'm excited for us to be able to do more fun stuff. My oldest is only six, and I'm not nearly as good with my boys as I was with her, and there's only three years between them.

Yay for your kiddos coming home!

Robin said...

I wish I has a 3pm break! I am glad your kids are almost home, hurray for organized chaos! It was always fun for us as kids having so many others to play with all the time, so I sorta get it.

I laugh when you say-Holy Gay!

s--max said...

You are NOT a lame mom ~ at any level. Just ask your kids!

Lauren said...

Holy Gay!! I feel so stupid singing "The Itsy Bitsy Spider" as we walk along the pool wall That was just amazing! I would have said the same thing "HOLY GAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY!"

Yay! Your kids are coming home!

Oh...haha I laughed so hard at "Our pet's head's are falling off!"

How about this quote:

Pretty biiiiiiiiiird

CHEL said...

Totally feeling your pain... When Ryk isn't here to give me a little break from Jak... ugh! Although I can't leave him with Ryk, I still feel like I have that break when Ryk is here entertaining him. Lately it's been me and the two little ones.... I need a break!! :)
You're so funny. You totally word things like the way I think.

Mel said...

Only one more week, Yeah! You are not a "lame" little kid mom.... you are fun and cool:) I can't do the McDonalds playland, the library or Mom Tot classes anymore because its so depressing. Oh, and scaling the pool wall while singing itsy bitsy and making felt books is definately gayish!

Thoroughly Mormon Millie said...

LOL @ "Holy Gay!"

I miss the structure of the rest of the year, definitely, but I'm enjoying this summer because when fall comes, early morning Seminary starts for our oldest. Just the thought of it makes me cranky. Plus I'll have one starting high school, one starting middle school, and two in elementary (one starting kindergarten). Can we say "stress"?

I miss my oldest too. He's at Scout camp and I really do miss him. :(

Amanda said...

I remember the days of utter boredom with the little ones. I was not brave enough to venture out much with the three of them by myself so we spent hour upon hour at home. I love the new found freedom that having older kids has given me. I think that is one reason I have enjoyed Megan so much, I have the older kids to help out and I get more of a break. YAY!

Hurray for your kids coming home next week! :D

Heffalump said...

Yay! Only six more days! You can make it.
I am sorry about your having to sing the itsy bitsy spider...they should really think about having a Mom and me class for hip moms where they play cool music and have a disco ball don't you think?

No Cool Story said...

I'm your twin!!! YESSSS! :D

I'm so glad the kids are coming back soon, I say "yay!" to that.

Some of what I'm reading is that Livie has a built-in gaydar. Excellent, it will come in handy.
And that you used to make felt book (a la "Our pets heads are fallin' off!!) And that you just want to drink Diet DP.
I say LOL to all that.

Suzanne said...

This gives me hope that life will get a little easier as my kids get bigger. Here I was thinking that you were getting a bit of a break to have some of the kids gone! LOL!

"Holy Gay" is just cracking me up! :D I'm so glad your kids will be home within a week! :)

utmommy said...

3pm break? What's that?

Glad your kids will be home soon!

Allison said...

did you get it?

Tori :) said...

Allison- If you're talking about the Good Mail you sent. YES! I did get it. I always do my Good Mail posts on Saturday. So check back!

wendy said...

Yea! They're coming home!

No more mommy and me swimming...

annie said...

Hey Miss Tori!
Glad the kids will be home soon!
I know how much you have missed them.

Nancy Face said...

"Livie senses the gayness because she screams the entire time." Hahaha, I almost fell out of my chair! Babies and toddlers are precious, but I LOVE having older kids! You'll get there, but then you will be ancient like me, haha!

elasticwaistbandlady said...

Do you want to know how lame I am, tori? Well, do you? I'm so frickin lame that I feel like I can't go anywhere without hauling at least one of my kids with me. I don't have even one picture of me in the last 12 years without a kid somewhere in the frame too. That's because I panic that someone will see my fatness, and I'll pull them in front of me for a quick disguise.

I used to make homemade baby food, sew baby quilts, and go to Gymboree. Notice I say used to. Not no more, baby.

Liam's Mom - Gina said...

So THAT is what depression is? I have been depressed a long time then. I had no idea! Man, I've got problems.

Holy Gay cracked me up too... and Lauren's comment Pretty biiiiiiiiiird... yeah, I love that movie! Did you ever see Dumb and Dumberer? That was so well done! Hilarious!

I LOVE THESE PHOTOS! Great shots, Tori!

aubrey said...

i can't wait to have my kids grown. i think big kids are so much fun. but the only exposure i have to them is during senior sharing time in primary and that is always my favorite time on sunday!

Gretch said...

Hang in there!! I can't imagine how hard that is for you!


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stay cool!