Monday, November 26, 2007

BIG NEWS Part I

Have you ever just felt something so strongly in your gut that you couldn't deny it- even if it seemed crazy or scary or didn't make sense to you?? I've had that happen to me only a few of times in my life. The 1st time was when I felt "NOW- NOW it is time to file for divorce." I had been waiting for that confirmation and apparently Heavenly Father knew what he was talking about because although I had to deal with a lot of crap for months and didn't understand *why* I couldn't file for divorce in October rather than February- God knew why. Then came moving to Utah. I felt very strongly I should move to Utah and I fought it at 1st. Why would a newly single mom of 3 small children leave the only home she'd ever known to live in Utah? I was just going to hurt people and I absolutely *hate* for people to be hurting because of something I did. But I put my house on the market and said "Here goes nothin'!!" Then I met Sei- who lived in Utah- and it all made sense. :) The most recent time I have had an overwhelming feeling to do something was in September of this year....

There was a time when I really wanted to be in Texas, but I knew the timing was wrong mostly because of my ex and the influence he would have in my children's lives. One time we tried to move back and I was literally nauseous the entire time. It didn't work out and I know it was a blessing. I let the dream of living by family die and *knew* I would be in Utah for life most likely. But then, literally out of no where, I had an overwhelming feeling- not a desire- a true PUSH telling me that we were suppose to go to Texas- NOW. That's crazy. We just bought a house a year ago. We just finished the backyard. Sei has a good job with a great schedule. But the feeling didn't go away. When I told Sei I felt we were suppose to be in Texas. Instead of saying I was crazy, he said, "I've been feeling that way too." What??? Sei and I are both the type when we feel something is right we don't analyze, we just hold hands and JUMP! It was that way when we got married. We knew we were suppose to be together and even though everyone else could see why we shouldn't rush it (We'd known each other for just a couple of months- mostly thru emails.) and didn't understand why we eloped, WE knew why. And it was right, for us. Now if one of our kids does the same thing... I'm gonna freak! Just sayin'...

Anyway... I've learned to trust my gut and I try to follow it. Little did I know how much "trusting" and full fledge leaps of faith would be involved in this journey.
To be continued...


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28 comments:

Katie said...

How exciting! I was sure that your big news was going to involve being paid to blog somewhere. You're such a fun writer. How exciting for you to get to go home! Congratulations!

Lauren said...

Exciting!!! I hope you get to move back!!

Jamie said...

Awesome!!! I hope it all works out for you. I am a true Texas girl myself, so I'm partial to it. Do you know where you will be moving to yet? I am up in the north central part of the state.

NOBODY said...

Oh man, I can't wait for the rest.
As insanely jealous as this makes me...

Yvonne said...

Tori, I think it is so wonderful that you follow so closely what you know is the right thing for you!
Can't wait to hear the rest of the story.

Emily said...

Oh, I'm so jealous that you'll get to live by your family again. When we moved to Hawaii it made no sense, it so many ways, but it felt so right and it was.

Liam's Mom - Gina said...

I'm on the edge of my seat... I can't wait to hear how everything has been playing out.

Thoroughly Mormon Millie said...

Wow. Your gut is loud. :)

I'm excited to hear the rest! I love stories like these!!!

omar said...

I had $50 on "moving back to Texas" from the moment the betting lines opened. (That's right, Vegas oddsmakers were all over this big announcement of yours.)

I also put $25 on "joining the circus," and $10 on "entering next year's Nathan's Hot Dog Eating Contest."

There's still more to your announcement, right?

Nancy Face said...

Yay! I love Texas, and I'm so excited for you! :)

Omar is such a crackup! :D

Amanda said...

I thought you were going to say that you were feeling that you needed 'one more'! ;) How exciting to move back to Texas and be closer to your family. I love living here in SD, but I hate being so far away from my family. :( Yay for you!!!! :)

Jean Knee said...

Texas rocks, it's true
but it will rock even more when Tori gets here

annie said...

Your ♥ doesn't lie!
I'll surely meet you IRL if you move to TEXAS!
Prayers.

annie said...

p.s. I'll try to update your siggy this afternoon. I've been so absent from the blog world with the broken laptop saga! ugh :o)!

Thoroughly Mormon Millie said...

Awwww, look at your cute blog. :)

PJ said...

OK...I can't wait to hear the REST of the STORY!

Take life by the Horns!

NOBODY said...

Hi, excuse me, would you be willing to "sandwhich" part 2 in between a couple of blog ads? Today.
Thank you.

NOBODY said...

that would be sandWICH. Sheesh.

~j. said...

Holey moley! I can't wait to hear the rest of this!

Mel said...

Oh, how exciting for you! I can't wait to hear the rest of the story...

No Cool Story said...

PROUD TEXAN- no matter how long I live in Utah I will never be a "Utahn."

Can't wait to read more.

PS: My bet was on either "getting a dog" or "moving to the East Coast."
So glad I'm no gambling woman.

aubrey said...

my bet was on another kid. but this is very cool. what an awesome example of following your gut. i need to be more like that!

s--max said...

I'm on the edge of my seat....can't wait to hear the ending! ;)
Very cute Christmas theme, by the way!

Stepherz said...

OH HOW WONDERFUL! Tori, I'm so excited for you. Ship me some sweet tea and country ham once you get there, k? Promise? JK, but I am soooo very happy for you and your family. That's the best news I've heard all day!

Colleen said...

It's so exciting. When Sei responded by saying he felt the same way.... chills. Can't wait to hear more!

Mrs. Monkey Butt said...

It is amazing how the Lord makes the tings in our lives work when they need to.

This is major big news, even for a Texan!

A Little Revolution said...

When the Holy Ghost says jump respond, "How high?!" Go for it you wonderful crazies! How else in the world would I have ended up here, with an adopted daughter and a biological daughter on her heels, if I hadn't listened to crazy promptings! If I were closer I'd help y'all pack.

BTW, Nice Christmas colors!

elasticwaistbandlady said...

Wait. What??!!!? You iz comin back to yo roots? Yee-haw!!! We gonna party barbecue bean and brisket style!