So this week my oldest son, Tristan, left for Army Basic Training. He is in Missouri at Fort Leonard Wood. Monday before he left we had a family dinner and then Seiuli gave him a special blessing with Alec and my dad. Then we went around the room saying whatever we felt needed to be said. I couldn't really talk, so I think I said something along the lines of, "I'm your biggest fan and I'll be ringing my cowbell down here in Texas..." Because he LOVED my cowbell during football season. not Then he hugged everyone. I was the last one he hugged and he bawled on my shoulder. The last year has been tough as he was learning to exert his independence, but at that moment as he cried I knew he needed me and I knew he loved me always.
Tuesday I took Tristan to eat lunch at the schools with Taj, Liv and Isabel. He was able to tell some high school friends "bye." At McDonalds when we were getting lunch for Isabel there was an Army recruiter in line. I started talking to him and he said, "How is your son?" I said that he was doing good. Then he said, "And how are YOU?!" And I squeaked out, "Fine, unless I try to talk." That was followed by an awkward silence as I tried to find my voice and suck the tears back up into my eyes.
Then I had the, uh, pleasure (?) of dropping him off at the recruiting
center. He was going to be spending the night in Dallas before swearing
in on Wednesday. I dropped him off, and sat in the parking lot crying in
my van for about 1/2 an hour. I only left because I had to pick up Taj
and Liv. It was so hard to leave.
Wednesday we headed up to the Military Entrance Processing Station (MEPS) and watched him take his oath as a US Soldier. Then we hung out in front of the elevator for about 1/2 an hour. No one wanted to push the "down" button. But eventually HE had to leave, so we did too. Apparently Moms can't come with their sons to boot camp. ;)
I'm not gonna lie. The last 5 days have sucked in my opinion. I don't like not hearing from him or even having an address. And I have my bouts of crying and depression. Seiuli has been great. He brought me flowers, a sweet card, saw a chick flick movie with me (Austenland is WONDERFUL!!!) and bought me like 12 2-liters of Diet DP. I kid you not.